A hard night

Tonight I put D2 down without nursing her - for the first time ever. She fell asleep faster than I thought she would, and I still got to cuddle with her, but I can't help but feel a little heartbreak knowing that we're moving on to a new chapter in our lives and I'm not sure I'm ready for that. Time passes whether I want it to or not, and it never speeds up nor slows down according to my whim. I can only hope that time will take this feeling of utter sadness as quickly as it stole the last baby I'll ever have.